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Cyberspace Blues, by Ekiwah Adler~Belendez

I

I hear the faint jealousy of books bulging toward me
Read! Not now. My brain is a jellyfish sentenced
to life in a dollhouse.

I'm breathing under a wallpaper sky.
Falling in love is a masochistic act:
There's no time to calculate heights or distances
I detest the smell of hospitals.

Being in love:
working at a factory
manipulating a single button. Dawn and dusk
assembling little pieces. It's a low-income job.
I have no time to study. Writing love poems
has made me ignorant.

(Years from now I will laugh at myself:
it was past midnight,
I was a teenager in a yellow sweater,
in love).
In this war there's no sergeant,
not even a battle.

I would like to stay here...
No. I must leave this field
before the fight begins ---
one day I will not remember your name.

II

I've been sitting on my ass all my life,
I should join a caravan of winged elephants;
even now I'm wearing Guatemalan pants.
The dove of peace has left,
I praise the scattered crumbs of justice
(the ones that have not been touched),
I have always been a hippie.
I'm beginning to feel
the withdrawal symptoms
from not receiving your letters.
This has given me the shakes.
Give me any other color. I don't like blue. Now now.
Time is serene here.
This is supposed to be Mexican time
Why is everything moving so fast?
I like the doves of peace but I prefer mockingbirds,
canaries, ravens or you.
You've got to hurry!
One day I will not remember your name.

III

I have fallen in love with you---
what good is it?
Falling in love: such a useless little event
like scraping a knee.

Let me entertain you, make you smile,
lets find out what life is like in Jupiter or Mars---
that's what the song says
No! I would not like to go to Jupiter or Mars
be compressed into a machine,
living off oxygen tanks,
and artificial food,
float like a senseless monologue in space
trying to find signs of life
Don't make me do that!
Falling in love: it's sweet
my teeth are rotting and I'm hyperactive;
more candy, more candy! More...
If I could write about the market in Tepoztlan.
I would plunge into that ever-widening lake:
salt, blood, pig heads hanging on hooks, smirking,
carrot juice turned green by the vitality of alfalfa,
pistachios, lentils, an entire family of chiles,
humid fish vendors hands,
mesmerized dogs
claiming their right
to be fed and loved,
chocolate atole, how sinful!
Red-brown tamarindo water in thick crystal vases,
seeds bursting everywhere!
(You and I could pretend to have ten children---)
Imagine: we could die together swallowed up
in that roaring nirvana
like crickets roasted inside tortillas---
then a cobalt-blue deer would rise
out of the old amate parchments
leading us into the white night before dark.
Our bodies could open there like flowers!
We could repeat this ritual the next morning.
How can I write about the market?
I haven't been there for weeks,
I don't know the names of the avenues or the streets of
my town.
It's depressing to go to any kind of heaven without you.
To keep heaven to myself: how pointless, how selfish,
how putrid!

Call me infatuated, needy
but I've been here typing my skin off for days
and I have no one else
to send this to.

Seduction requires mathematical coolness:
(I haven't handled money yet)
my feelings are plain as boulders.

The screenplay:
I'm charming
She: a brilliant raving beauty
In her thirties.
Married,
With children,
Or more boyfriends
Than she can manage.
Stops for a minute
(Or two if I'm lucky).

I'm their child, their sweet brother
It meant so much for them to meet me!
They keep me in their heart---
They speed by me

The younger girls:
imagine them writing sappy verses to me,
giving me a ghostly kiss.
I notice them like little pieces of dry grass.
(Will my arrogance and my ambition ever end?)

What I would give for a new love story!
I'd stroll around the market,
meet a special girl
in an organic coffee shop,
take her into the mountains...
we'd shape-shift into dragons,
tear our lungs out, consume ourselves,
become ash, memory of the earth
when it boiled and burned,
wisdom beyond wisdom---
and then
we'd look at the little things,
the painted fish dangling in air
I've never been good at bargaining.
This is not a poem, it's energy waste.
One day I will not remember your name.

IV

I will not scream.
My rage could grow,
like a beard choking the man in the iron mask---
the fair king would never be ruler---
he would die suffocated in his old, old youth.
I will not scream.
My rage could make muscles
hollow and flaccid,
turn vocal cords rigid,
abort pregnancies,
poison venomous frogs,
fill spa pools with bile,
twist nerves,
unleash the ghosts of betrayed constitutions,
be a snow blizzard,
paralyze a city,
uncover the bones of infants
thrown in ditches,
hear all the other screams
through my little scream
until I become deaf.
I shrivel to the size
of a portrait etched on a grain of rice.
I'm afraid.
Love could slither
into the scabs of my back
like a parasite---

I will not scream.
I will not remember your name.

V

Beloved,
don't feel sorry for me---
the world already has
too many victims and saviors.
You don't have to be crucified to take my pain away.
Having bewitched me is not a sin.
(let's not go back to the holy inquisition).
I'm not angry at you,
only at my own ineptitudes,
the one or two stuck keys of my life
that keep the entire piano out of tune.

Slowly my ears become larger,
the music begins to fall into place,
and I begin to dance
like a Dervish
whirling inside your absence:

I worship the little fragments of you
as if my hands held bits of galaxies;
your self contained stride
pausing in awe
to notice the society of bugs
and the tremor of willow trees,
your lips tempting apricots
under a high noon sun,
your subterranean songs
dazzling me
like coral reefs
your implacable stare---
a wolf emerging in and out of shadow,
your crisp intelligence
descending into my grasp like snow
and your joy
re-creating itself
like stained glass in a kaleidoscope.
This celebration will continue long after you fade,
this dance will dance even without me!

I suspect I'm the kind of lover
who can turn clocks into open fields,
who can gather the laughing colors of autumn,
who can turn his nakedness
into a warm coat,
who can leave his garden alone
to let the wild-flowers grow.

I suspect I'm the kind of lover
who can be disheveled,
caring little about hygiene,
slow in body,
demanding help,
capricious,
impatient, overly ambitious,
lazy, electric and keen like a hummingbird,
quick to make wrong assumptions.

I come from
my mother's exquisite eloquence,
my father's devotion to kindness
quietly filling the day like birdsong,
and the soaring music of my brother's mirth.
Can I be like earth---rich and selfless
and soothing like moonlight?
Maybe I have too much---
If the butterfly-women
don't come to this garden
to pollinate it with their presence
the flowers will not spread,
they will stay almost forever
bound to a single fraction of land.

VI

Even if it was only for a few days
you returned the fury of my stare.
I know it:
you and I were never lovers,
yet beware, this poem is our screaming naked baby.
I cannot force you to care for it.
One day I might not remember your name.


© The Coyote's Trace: A Collection of Poems, by Ekiwah Adler~Belendez

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A new cold war in Kashmir, by Arundhati Roy

While we're still arguing about whether there's life after death, can we add another question to the cart? Is there life after democracy? What sort of life will it be? By "democracy" I don't mean democracy as an ideal or an aspiration. I mean the working model: Western liberal democracy, and its variants, such as they are.

So, is there life after democracy?

Attempts to answer this question often turn into a comparison of different systems of governance, and end with a somewhat prickly, combative defense of democracy. It's flawed, we say. It isn't perfect, but it's better than everything else that's on offer. Inevitably, someone in the room will say: "Afghanistan, Pakistan, Saudi Arabia, Somalia ... is that what you would prefer?"

Whether democracy should be the utopia that all "developing" societies aspire to is a separate question altogether. (I think it should. The early, idealistic phase can be quite heady.) The question about life after democracy is addressed to those of us who already live in democracies, or in countries that pretend to be democracies. It isn't meant to suggest that we lapse into older, discredited models of totalitarian or authoritarian governance. It's meant to suggest that the system of representative democracy - too much representation, too little democracy - needs some structural adjustment.

The question here, really, is what have we done to democracy? What have we turned it into? What happens once democracy has been used up? When it has been hollowed out and emptied of meaning? What happens when each of its institutions has metastasized into something dangerous? What happens now that democracy and the free market have fused into a single predatory organism with a thin, constricted imagination that revolves almost entirely around the idea of maximizing profit?

Is it possible to reverse this process? Can something that has mutated go back to being what it used to be? What we need today, for the sake of the survival of this planet, is long-term vision. Can governments whose very survival depends on immediate, extractive, short-term gain provide this? Could it be that democracy, the sacred answer to our short-term hopes and prayers, the protector of our individual freedoms and nurturer of our avaricious dreams, will turn out to be the endgame for the human race? Could it be that democracy is such a hit with modern humans precisely because it mirrors our greatest folly - our nearsightedness?

Our inability to live entirely in the present (like most animals do), combined with our inability to see very far into the future, makes us strange in-between creatures, neither beast nor prophet. Our amazing intelligence seems to have outstripped our instinct for survival. We plunder the earth hoping that accumulating material surplus will make up for the profound, unfathomable thing that we have lost. It would be conceit to pretend I have the answers to any of these questions. But it does look as if the beacon could be failing and democracy can perhaps no longer be relied upon to deliver the justice and stability we once dreamed it would.

A clerk of resistance

As a writer, a fiction writer, I have often wondered whether the attempt to always be precise, to try and get it all factually right, somehow reduces the epic scale of what is really going on. Does it eventually mask a larger truth? I worry that I am allowing myself to be railroaded into offering prosaic, factual precision when maybe what we need is a feral howl, or the transformative power and real precision of poetry.

Something about the cunning, Brahmanical, intricate, bureaucratic, file-bound, "apply-through-proper-channels" nature of governance and subjugation in India seems to have made a clerk out of me. My only excuse is to say that it takes odd tools to uncover the maze of subterfuge and hypocrisy that cloaks the callousness and the cold, calculated violence of the world's favorite new superpower. Repression "through proper channels" sometimes engenders resistance "through proper channels." As resistance goes this isn't enough, I know. But for now, it's all I have. Perhaps someday it will become the underpinning for poetry and for the feral howl.

Today, words like "progress" and "development" have become interchangeable with economic "reforms," "deregulation," and "privatization". Freedom has come to mean choice. It has less to do with the human spirit than with different brands of deodorant. Market no longer means a place where you buy provisions. The "market" is a de-territorialized space where faceless corporations do business, including buying and selling "futures". Justice has come to mean human rights (and of those, as they say, "a few will do").

This theft of language, this technique of usurping words and deploying them like weapons, of using them to mask intent and to mean exactly the opposite of what they have traditionally meant, has been one of the most brilliant strategic victories of the czars of the new dispensation. It has allowed them to marginalize their detractors, deprive them of a language to voice their critique and dismiss them as being "anti-progress," "anti-development", "anti-reform", and of course "anti-national" - negativists of the worst sort.

Talk about saving a river or protecting a forest and they say, "Don't you believe in progress?" To people whose land is being submerged by dam reservoirs, and whose homes are being bulldozed, they say, "Do you have an alternative development model?" To those who believe that a government is duty bound to provide people with basic education, health care, and social security, they say, "You're against the market." And who except a cretin could be against markets?

To reclaim these stolen words requires explanations that are too tedious for a world with a short attention span, and too expensive in an era when free speech has become unaffordable for the poor. This language heist may prove to be the keystone of our undoing.

Two decades of "progress" in India has created a vast middle class punch-drunk on sudden wealth and the sudden respect that comes with it - and a much, much vaster, desperate underclass. Tens of millions of people have been dispossessed and displaced from their land by floods, droughts, and desertification caused by indiscriminate environmental engineering and massive infrastructural projects, dams, mines and special economic zones. All developed in the name of the poor, but really meant to service the rising demands of the new aristocracy.

The hoary institutions of Indian democracy - the judiciary, the police, the "free" press, and, of course, elections - far from working as a system of checks and balances, quite often do the opposite. They provide each other cover to promote the larger interests of union and progress. In the process, they generate such confusion, such a cacophony, that voices raised in warning just become part of the noise. And that only helps to enhance the image of the tolerant, lumbering, colorful, somewhat chaotic democracy. The chaos is real. But so is the consensus.

A new cold war in Kashmir

Speaking of consensus, there's the small and ever-present matter of Kashmir. When it comes to Kashmir the consensus in India is hard core. It cuts across every section of the establishment - including the media, the bureaucracy, the intelligentsia, and even Bollywood.

The war in the Kashmir Valley is almost 20-years old now, and has claimed about 70,000 lives. Tens of thousands have been tortured, several thousand have "disappeared", women have been raped, tens of thousands widowed. Half a million Indian troops patrol the Kashmir Valley, making it the most militarized zone in the world. (The United States had about 165,000 active-duty troops in Iraq at the height of its occupation.) The Indian army now claims that it has, for the most part, crushed militancy in Kashmir. Perhaps that's true. But does military domination mean victory?

How does a government that claims to be a democracy justify a military occupation? By holding regular elections, of course. Elections in Kashmir have had a long and fascinating past. The blatantly rigged state election of 1987 was the immediate provocation for the armed uprising that began in 1990. Since then elections have become a finely honed instrument of the military occupation, a sinister playground for India's deep state. Intelligence agencies have created political parties and decoy politicians, they have constructed and destroyed political careers at will. It is they more than anyone else who decide what the outcome of each election will be. After every election, the Indian establishment declares that India has won a popular mandate from the people of Kashmir.

In the summer of 2008, a dispute over land being allotted to the Amarnath Shrine Board coalesced into a massive, non-violent uprising. Day after day, hundreds of thousands of people defied soldiers and policemen - who fired straight into the crowds, killing scores of people - and thronged the streets. From early morning to late in the night, the city reverberated to chants of "Azadi! Azadi!" (Freedom! Freedom!). Fruit sellers weighed fruit chanting "Azadi! Azadi!" Shopkeepers, doctors, houseboat owners, guides, weavers, carpet sellers - everybody was out with placards, everybody shouted "Azadi! Azadi!" The protests went on for several days.

The protests were massive. They were democratic, and they were non-violent. For the first time in decades, fissures appeared in mainstream public opinion in India. The Indian state panicked. Unsure of how to deal with this mass civil disobedience, it ordered a crackdown. It enforced the harshest curfew in recent memory with shoot-on-sight orders. In effect, for days on end, it virtually caged millions of people. The major pro-freedom leaders were placed under house arrest, several others were jailed. House-to-house searches culminated in the arrests of hundreds of people.

Once the rebellion was brought under control, the government did something extraordinary - it announced elections in the state. Pro-independence leaders called for a boycott. They were re-arrested. Almost everybody believed the elections would become a huge embarrassment for the Indian government. The security establishment convulsed with paranoia. Its elaborate network of spies, renegades, and embedded journalists began to buzz with renewed energy. No chances were taken. (Even I, who had nothing to do with any of what was going on, was put under house arrest in Srinagar for two days.)

Calling for elections was a huge risk. But the gamble paid off. People turned out to vote in droves. It was the biggest voter turnout since the armed struggle began. It helped that the polls were scheduled so that the first districts to vote were the most militarized districts even within the Kashmir Valley.

None of India's analysts, journalists, and psephologists cared to ask why people who had only weeks ago risked everything, including bullets and shoot-on-sight orders, should have suddenly changed their minds. None of the high-profile scholars of the great festival of democracy - who practically live in television studios when there are elections in mainland India, picking apart every forecast and exit poll and every minor percentile swing in the vote count - talked about what elections mean in the presence of such a massive, year-round troop deployment (one armed soldier for every 20 civilians).

No one speculated about the mystery of hundreds of unknown candidates who materialized out of nowhere to represent political parties that had no previous presence in the Kashmir Valley. Where had they come from? Who was financing them? No one was curious. No one spoke about the curfew, the mass arrests, the lockdown of constituencies that were going to the polls.

Not many talked about the fact that campaigning politicians went out of their way to de-link Azadi and the Kashmir dispute from elections, which they insisted were only about municipal issues - roads, water, electricity. No one talked about why people who have lived under a military occupation for decades - where soldiers could barge into homes and whisk away people at any time of the day or night - might need someone to listen to them, to take up their cases, to represent them.

The minute elections were over, the establishment and the mainstream press declared victory (for India) once again. The most worrying fallout was that in Kashmir, people began to parrot their colonizers' view of themselves as a somewhat pathetic people who deserved what they got. "Never trust a Kashmiri," several Kashmiris said to me. "We're fickle and unreliable." Psychological warfare, technically known as psy-ops, has been an instrument of official policy in Kashmir. Its depredations over decades - its attempt to destroy people's self-esteem - are arguably the worst aspect of the occupation. It's enough to make you wonder whether there is any connection at all between elections and democracy.

The trouble is that Kashmir sits on the fault lines of a region that is awash in weapons and sliding into chaos. The Kashmiri freedom struggle, with its crystal clear sentiment but fuzzy outlines, is caught in the vortex of several dangerous and conflicting ideologies - Indian nationalism (corporate as well as "Hindu," shading into imperialism), Pakistani nationalism (breaking down under the burden of its own contradictions), US imperialism (made impatient by a tanking economy), and a resurgent medieval-Islamist Taliban (fast gaining legitimacy, despite its insane brutality, because it is seen to be resisting an occupation).

Each of these ideologies is capable of a ruthlessness that can range from genocide to nuclear war. Add Chinese imperial ambitions, an aggressive, reincarnated Russia, and the huge reserves of natural gas in the Caspian region and persistent whispers about natural gas, oil, and uranium reserves in Kashmir and Ladakh, and you have the recipe for a new cold war (which, like the last one, is cold for some and hot for others).

In the midst of all this, Kashmir is set to become the conduit through which the mayhem unfolding in Afghanistan and Pakistan spills into India, where it will find purchase in the anger of the young among India's 150 million Muslims who have been brutalized, humiliated and marginalized. Notice has been given by the series of terrorist strikes that culminated in the Mumbai attacks of 2008.

There is no doubt that the Kashmir dispute ranks right up there, along with Palestine, as one of the oldest, most intractable disputes in the world. That does not mean that it cannot be resolved. Only that the solution will not be completely to the satisfaction of any one party, one country, or one ideology. Negotiators will have to be prepared to deviate from the "party line."

Of course, we haven't yet reached the stage where the government of India is even prepared to admit that there's a problem, let alone negotiate a solution. Right now it has no reason to. Internationally, its stocks are soaring. And while its neighbors deal with bloodshed, civil war, concentration camps, refugees, and army mutinies, India has just concluded a beautiful election. However, "demon-crazy" can't fool all the people all the time. India's temporary, shotgun solutions to the unrest in Kashmir (pardon the pun), have magnified the problem and driven it deep into a place where it is poisoning the aquifers.

Is democracy melting?

Perhaps the story of the Siachen Glacier, the highest battlefield in the world, is the most appropriate metaphor for the insanity of our times. Thousands of Indian and Pakistani soldiers have been deployed there, enduring chill winds and temperatures that dip to minus 40 degrees Celsius. Of the hundreds who have died there, many have died just from the elements.

The glacier has become a garbage dump now, littered with the detritus of war - thousands of empty artillery shells, empty fuel drums, ice axes, old boots, tents, and every other kind of waste that thousands of warring human beings generate. The garbage remains intact, perfectly preserved at those icy temperatures, a pristine monument to human folly.

While the Indian and Pakistani governments spend billions of dollars on weapons and the logistics of high-altitude warfare, the battlefield has begun to melt. Right now, it has shrunk to about half its size. The melting has less to do with the military standoff than with people far away, on the other side of the world, living the good life. They're good people who believe in peace, free speech, and in human rights. They live in thriving democracies whose governments sit on the United Nations Security Council and whose economies depend heavily on the export of war and the sale of weapons to countries like India and Pakistan. (And Rwanda, Sudan, Somalia, the Republic of Congo, Iraq, Afghanistan ... it's a long list.)

The glacial melt will cause severe floods on the subcontinent, and eventually severe drought that will affect the lives of millions of people. That will give us even more reasons to fight. We'll need more weapons. Who knows? That sort of consumer confidence may be just what the world needs to get over the current recession. Then everyone in the thriving democracies will have an even better life - and the glaciers will melt even faster.


Arundhati Roy was born in 1959 in Shillong, India. She studied architecture in New Delhi, where she now lives. She has worked as a film designer and screenplay writer in India. Roy is the author of the novel The God of Small Things, for which she received the 1997 Booker Prize. Her new book, just published by Haymarket Books, is Field Notes on Democracy: Listening to Grasshoppers. This post is adapted from the introduction to that book.

(© 2009 Arundhati Roy)
reproduced from here

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Summer Solstice, Batticaloa, Sri Lanka, by Marilyn Krysl.

The war had turned inward until it resembled
suicide. The only soothing thing was water.
I passed the sentries, followed the surf out of
sight.
I would sink into the elements, become simple.

Surf sounds like erasure, over and over.
I lay down and let go, the way you trust an animal.
When I opened my eyes, all down the strand
small crabs, the bright yellow of a crayon,

had come out onto the sand. Their numbers,
scattered,
resembled the galactic spill and volume of stars.
I, who had lain down alone, emptied,
waked at the center of ten thousand prayers.

Who would refuse such attention. I let it sweeten me
back into the universe. I was alive, in the midst
of great loving, which is all I've ever wanted.
The soldiers of both sides probably wanted just
this.


[© Marilyn Krysl; from Warscape with Lovers, Cleveland State University Poetry Center, 1983]

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See-Through, by Andrea Gibson

We're on our way back to school from gymnastics class.
And only in Boulder, Colorado,
the kids are singing John Lennon's "Imagine"
at the back of the bus, when

Jesse stops herself mid-verse,
stretches her arm across the aisle like a sunbeam,
tugs at the edge of my shirt and asks,
"What does hatred mean?"

Jesse's five years old.
Anything I say, she's gonna believe.
But I realize, I don't know the answer.
I'm not sure what hatred means.
I could guess and say it's the opposite of love.
I could guess and say,
"Jesse, hatred is why there are nothing but white faces
on our private-school bus."

But Jesse isn't white yet.
Go ahead and ask her.

"What color are you, Jesse?"

"Well, it looks like I'm pink."

Shane thinks he's orange.
Skylar says she's tan.
Rhett says he's see-through.
"See, you can see how my veins are blue
but they're red when I bleed."

And I wish there was no such thing as springtime.
'Cause I don't trust the machines
that will one day be planting seeds in these gardens
teaching them that some people are flowers
some people are weeds,
rip the weeds by their roots
ignore their screams
tilt your own face to the sun
take what you want,
you are the chosen ones.

Sitting Bull said white people are liars and thieves.
I wanna tell Jesse he was wrong.

I wanna tell her we didn't come like a time bomb,
gunpowder on our breath,
teeth built like bullets,
that this land didn't weep when our feet
first mercilessly hit the ground.
I don't want to say we drowned and maimed the children,
sliced long strips of their skin for bridle reins,
I don't wanna say the moon was slain,
the constellations dispersed like shrapnel.
Mothers killed their babies, then killed themselves
when they saw our faces on the horizon
and all that we left was a trail of tears.

But if I have to say that,
I wanna say our boats stopped there.
I wanna say the waves never saw the sails of slave ships,
never heard the sound of chain links,
but Jesse, think slaughterhouse.
Think people branded, suffocating, foaming at the mouth.
Can you imagine what kind of pain you would have to endure,
to throw yourself overboard 2000 miles out to sea?
Lungs gratefully exchanging breath for saltwater,
gratefully trading life for death.

Can you imagine being chained to your dead daughter?
How many days would it take you to stop
searching her hands for lifelines?
To stop searching her fingertips for remnants of sunshine?
To stop searching her wrists for a pulse,
for just some sign of time turning backwards
to when you knew
people could never do things like this?

And Jesse this
is not just a picture of our history,
not just a picture of our past.
We've been hundreds of years
measuring the size of our hearts
by the size of our fists,
erecting our bliss on the broken backs of dark skin.
The present is far from gift-wrapped.

Ask New Orleans,
Ask mothers in the Bronx,
chasing rats out of their babies' cribs.
Ask the fathers of the kids
whose lives we exchange for cheap gas.
Ask our prisons why jail bars always come in black.
Ask Afghanistan, Palestine, Iraq.
Ask the woman in Thailand whose cancer builds our laptops.
Ask the Mexican man working in a field fertilized
by nerve gas.
Ask his daughter when she's born without fingers
or hands to pray with.
Ask me how long I could keep going with this list.
God might be watching,
but we are not.

You are white, Jesse.
There are bodies dangling
from the limbs of your family tree.
Our people pull people from the soil like weeds.
Breathe in our story.
Force yourself to hold in your lungs
'til you can hear our hymns sung beneath white sheets.
'til your can feel your own finger on the trigger of the gun.
Feel yourself fire as they shout.
Do not look away as bullet enters heartbeat.
Now breathe out.
This is where we come from.
This is still where we are.
Now where will we go from here?

I don't believe we're hateful.
I think mostly we're just asleep.
But the math adds up the same.
You can't call up the dead and say,
"Sorry, we were looking the other way."

There are names and faces behind our apathy,
eulogies beneath our choices.
There are voices deep as roots
thundering unquestionable truth
through the white noise that pacifies our ears.
Don't tell me we don't hear.
Don't tell me we don't hear.
When the moon is slain,
when the constellations disperse like shrapnel,
don't you think it's time,
something changed?

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We are hard on each other -- Margaret Atwood

i)

We are hard on each other
and call it honesty,
choosing our jagged truths
with care and aiming them across
the neutral table.

The things we say are
true; it is our crooked
aims, our choices
turn them criminal.

ii)

Of course your lies
are more amusing:
you make them new each time.

Your truths, painful and boring
repeat themselves over & over
perhaps because you own
so few of them

iii)

A truth should exist,
it should not be used
like this. If I love you

is that a fact or a weapon?

iv)

Does the body lie
moving like this, are these
touches, hairs, wet
soft marble my tongue runs over
lies you are telling me?

Your body is not a word,
it does not lie or
speak truth either.

It is only
here or not here.


© Margaret Atwood

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Daddy's Girl

Have you ever been raped in your sleep?
Enclosed in a walk-in closet, door locked
enclosed,
encircled by screened catch-phrases like
“Aye papi, who’s your daddy?”
or
“bitch turn around and touch your toes.”
Have you had that dream?
Where your uncle, your grandfather,
and the rest of your male relatives
are gang-raping you in your crib
as an infant.
With your father as the master of ceremonies
whispering in your ear
“this is for your own good.
After all, it’s just a prelude to what
will happen when you grow up.
I’m just helping you become
a woman.”

Now, men might be confused right now,
but women should know exactly what I’m talking about
or maybe I need some real life examples
to help concertize and clarify.

Like the way that man tears off a woman’s blouse
with a cutting gaze.
Like the way a suggestive smile
finger-fucks my friends fiancé in her summer dress.
Like the way a billboard ad,
or a textbook passage,
or a caressing handshake,
or a Barbie doll that’s 6 foot 2
and weighs 95 pounds
with Double D Cup breasts
and four foot long legs,
can steal a woman’s virginity
before she even knows what sex is.

Like icing a woman’s nipples for artistic purposes.
Or making it fashionable for her to sag her jeans,
so they’ll be easier to take off
before you fuck her.
Like teaching women to like it
by teaching them this fishbowl is all there is,
and it’s “just the way things are.”
So they can give up
and forget how it could be.

Beat them down when they start puberty.
Make them ashamed for breasts they start developing,
make them ashamed for not having bigger breasts,
make it cool to suck lollipops in high school study halls
and wear high gloss lipstick that cover up
hungry words like facial expressions with cover-up
or strong backbones bent by cramping feet above back.
Weakening stilts acculturate and inundate girls in rape culture
so much that they choose
to have ‘Daddy’s Girl’ stitched on their asses,
as if to celebrate some electra complex rape sequence
to attract another dominant male figure
with juicy over their bound and falsely shaped chest
too plump lips pressed under their see-through vest.

And a wise man named Frère told me that it wasn’t the women.
That the oppressor within them craves the oppression.
That dominant father figures watching over all of us
wouldn’t see it another way
so men will keep making girls’ asses billboards of their dominance
will keep fetishizing epicanthic eyes as inherently kinky
will leave women’s mouths slightly open to connote sexual submission.
We’ll always objectify women of color first
since they’ve been raped for so long
what difference does it make?

Men need to look at themselves
and re-evaluate how we live
and what’s been created.
I need to look at myself
and re-evaluate this world
I’ve created.
And that world I’ve maintained.
With either a smile, or a shudder.

This normalized rape culture
makes billions off of making geisha’s
and silent painted faces.
Every sexual exchange is necessarily violent
and violating.
I raped my girlfriend every night
we tried to make love.
We need to break constructions and destroy cycles
to build something human.
Because it’s time to reflect and cultivate from within.

This change needs to start with men.
And not with women.

© Carlos Andres Gomez

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Emma Goldman on Free Love

"Free love? As if love is anything but free! Man has bought brains, but all the millions in the world have failed to buy love. Man has subdued bodies, but all the power on earth has been unable to subdue love. Man has conquered whole nations, but all his armies could not conquer love. Man has chained and fettered the spirit, but he has been utterly helpless before love. High on a throne, with all the splendour and pomp his gold can command, man is yet poor and desolate, if love passes him by. And if it stays, the poorest hovel is radiant with warmth, with life and colour. Thus love has the magic power to make of a beggar a king, Yes, love is free; it can dwell in no other atmosphere. In freedom it gives itself unreservedly, abundantly, completely. All the laws on the statutes, all the courts in the universe, cannot tear it from the soil, once love has taken root. If, however, the soil is steril, how can marriage make it bear fruit? It is like the last desperate struggle of fleeting life against death."

© Emma Goldman